My email box is full of joy. I haven't answered any of it, so I thought while it is sprinkling outside, I would get it tackled. So here goes. Many of you Boogie Man Facebook fans and blog readers have emailed or messaged me with questions. Remember...when you ask me, I let it fly. I really feel like someone is waterboarding me. Oh, wait, it is raining outside.
1) Do you review cold cases for police agencies? Do you review them for private individuals?
Answer: Yes, I do review them for police agencies. The individuals that ask me, sometimes. It depends. If I am given all the information that the police and the families have, I am more successful in reviewing something. If one or the other is not available due to my source, it won't result in a very efficient review and I hate partials. I haven't had a request in quite a while. I do love that kind of work.
2) What have you been doing with your free time?
Answer: I have a variety of things going on, but mostly my life has slowed down quite a bit. The strangest thing is, I find painting my house is my nemesis. I hate it. I loathe it. I know it has to be done. When I do it, it is really good therapy, great exercise, and I feel good after a day's work. I paint one can a month. I'm on a very tight budget. My neighbors hate me. Maybe I should post some results soon.
I run. I am trying to cut off a bunch of weight. I really want to do the ToughMudder that is coming to Indiana next year or any Mudder nearby.
Right now I am losing my best friend, Otis, and I really am beside myself. I don't like to leave him alone when I go to work. It sucks going through a loss, again, by myself. No support. It may be weird to some, but he was with me when I fell off cliffs in searches and he pulled me up the hill. He spooned with me in motels during search and rescue training. We rode in helicopters. It's the closest to skydiving I have come.
He loved on me when I was sad. He gives my daughter joy. He stayed with me through my bad marriages. He is by my side every day. He is the only man that has never disappointed me or left me except when he dies. He is just love.
I have another book I am reading for review, The Skeleton Crew. So far, I like it! Details later.
3) When are you going to publish another book?
Answer: Soon. It is going through the first edit. I don't know how I feel about it. I really enjoyed putting together The Rookies. This one has ups and downs and as much as I have written it over and over, it isn't funny to me any more. However, it is full of humor. I guess your reviews someday will tell me how I did. It's different. It's not like the other two, but has my style.
4) Do you miss police work? Will you ever go back?
Answer: I do miss it. I always will. Not enough that I have big regrets. I miss the times I was on top of my game. Investigations. Patrol from 2009-2011. I really do miss those greater than great moments, the confession, breaking a person down (mentally), and a victorious verdict.
Yeah, Queen, I miss driving fucking fast without a seatbelt, lights, and sirens, chewing my gum, listening to Eminem, having the sergeant on speaker phone, talking to my dispatcher and units on the radio, and putting on my pink lip gloss at the same time. I miss that screeching slide stop, and exiting the Charger full of adrenaline and walking or running with confidence and command presence to a hot call.
I miss the old people greeting me with a smile or talking to me at the gas stations. I even miss my crazy Mini Mart clerks and my area 2 nutty citizens.
I really miss a good fight, a funny call, and camaraderie with the blue suits. Luckily for me, they did not abandon me. I have contacts all over the US in law enforcement both currently employed and retired. It's great. After two tours, I will never say never. Now realistically, probably not. I have 6 months before my certification for Wyoming expires. Then, I would have to start over. I don't think I want to do that. Now stop telling me or sending me information about openings near you.
5) What are your future plans?
Answer: I want to teach at a college level. I would like to teach cops as well on contract trainings. I want to get my Master's Degree. I want to mold young minds. I want to become physically fit enough and money willing, to run races or do trail runs, mudders in different places. Bug is my main concern right now and I want her to grow up to be a wonderful young lady with a bright future. I think that plan is in action and going strong right now. I want to travel the world.
6) Will you live in The Harry Potter House forever? Is it your final destination.
Answer: Only if I die in it. My future is open, but I am cautious to leave everything again and start over somewhere else. It really is the only thing that scares me. Maybe because I am not financially sound right now and a lot is going on. I have a lot of personal things to take care of and many things on my plate to get done. I do believe I am destined to live in the country in solitary confinement, and this is a vacation or Cell Block F or something.
Yes, this is actually posted to the Harry Potter House-like screwed in the precious 120 plus year old siding. Note peeling paint, thus my project.
7) Do you miss Wyoming?
Answer: Every day. I think it was the only place I really felt connected to my dad. Sometimes my heart aches. Then I remember the wind and I am OK for just a minute. Then I miss it really bad again. I need to get back there and visit some friends. I really want to live in Dubois or Buffalo. It's just a dream.
8) What about love?
Answer: Yes, it was a song by Heart. Very popular in the day. Oh, you mean in connection to me? It scares me to death and I am not very good at it. I miss a companion and doing things with someone, someone to come home to, and great, wild sex. Well, you can have sex anytime without love or without anyone except yourself (TMI). I have never been loved nicely or for real, nor have I had anyone pay attention to me the way my dad said it should happen. I have had a tendency to attract assholes, psychopaths, or serial killers and for some reason respond to those types. The odds are against me. But maybe there is hope. That's all I have to say about that.
9) What do you think about all the police officers deaths of recent?
Answer: I think it sucks big monkey balls. It doesn't surprise me because of the way the world is churning right now, but it ANGERS me to no end. America is a wreck. I see her getting worse before she gets better.
10) Why did you really leave the police department in 2007?
Answer: It's complicated and it is not public information.
Well, time for more work around The Harry Potter House. There are more questions in my inbox, but I will save those for another day. Sorry to those of you who still have to wait.